I am the typical example for the so-called “ladyboy”. Although I am not a big fan of this word, it surly describes people like me very accurately. I was born as a boy and raised up like one as well. However, I can say that there was never a day I felt right about myself. I prefer to hang out with female friends instead of male counterparts. I think being with girls are more comfortable with being with guys. I envy my female friends for their pretty dresses and appearance, while when I was with my male friends, I always try to be as masculine as possible in order to be seemed normal in their eyes.
Until I was graduated from college, I finally decided to do something that might make myself uncomfortable for the rest of my life. I was born in the wrong body, but it won’t stop me from being the way I want to. So I started my hormone therapy, in order to be prepared for the significant gender reassignment surgery.
My breasts get bigger. My face and hands become more feminine. I feel more like a female instead of a male. However, I still have my male genital. I planned to make the complete transition from male to female. However, after one night, I decided to make a little compromise.
As all transgender people should know, gender reassignment surgery is very expensive, so I decided to save for a couple of years to be able to afford the expense. During the process, I went to a party. We drank a lot and smoked some drugs, which makes everyone more relaxed than usual. I saw a cute guy. We chatted for a while and then we decided to go out and find some place dark and more private. We started to make out passionately and he started take off my clothes and so I did the same to him. I only had my panties on while he was naked. I told him that he could go from my anus and I prefer that way. He agreed. He took off my pants and did it. Astonishingly he touched my private parts and that was when he realized that I had a penis. He stopped for several seconds and still finished it.
This experience tells me that I would still surprise men in bed. That’s how I decided not to cut off my male genitals. On the contrary, I am going to be a woman, a happy woman.